"Angry people are not always wise." --Pride and Prejudice

I would like to apologize for the rant I posted the other day. It was uncalled for, but not completely unexpected considering the circumstances, which I will not go into. Part of it was brought on by how I feel about being in Japan right now. I want to go home so bad, to be with my family and friends. And I feel insecure about what I'm doing here and why. So... I'm sorry.

That does not go to say, though, that what I talked about was unwarrented (some of it anyway). Maybe I am paranoid about what other people think of me spending my time here, and that's what makes me insecure and makes me feel the need to defend myself. But I am sorry that it went the way it did. I was only protecting myself, and I'm sorry it got ugly.

But one thing goes without saying: I love my family. Each and every member. I wish I could spend more time with them, because if I had to I'm not sure I could tell others what their favorite colors were, or their favorite candy bars were. Those may seem like petty things, but they are things I do want to know, among others. It has been so hard being in a place where no one understands the intricacies of who I am. And no matter how much my family may or may not know me or my thoughts or likes or dislikes, they've known me for my entire life. And that's something Japan will never know or understand.