Haha :) Then some days I think too much about how I feel so unaccomplished and haven't done anything. Then some days I go and get a makeover at Meryle Norman :D lol.jpg)
And then some days I write and have a lot of hope for what I want to do. And then other days I feel like it's a work of crap and I should just be a lousy secretary for the rest of my life. Then no one wants me as a lousy secretary because I'm...not good enough? :/ Then I get a job!!! Then I spend the next 2 weeks waiting for my background check to go through when it should've been an easy thing. Japan is screwing with everything.
Then I made money last year in Japan. Then I suddenly have almost none. Then we didn't file taxes because dad and I are pretty sure I don't have to. Sure enough, with my luck, I'll go to jail this year. Won't that be fun? I'm really looking forward to it.
And then I go to Disneyland with Jek and have a blast! I see my nephews and love them SOOO much. I play guitar and my fingers hurt, but I'm happy about that. Then I try and play piano and realize I'm terrible.
I just want to be GOOD at something!!! Not like fair at something, like really really good at it. I'm mediocre at a lot of things: cooking, flower arrangement, piano, japanese, writing, singing.... But I just want to have something that sets me apart... i guess... :p
Am I making any sense?????
"I can be brown, I can blue, I can be violet sky! I can be hurtful, I can be purple, I can be anything you want. Gotta be green, gotta be mean, gotta be everything wrong... Why don't like me? Why don't you like me?? Why don't you walk out the door!!"
2 comments:
i want a makeover!!!!!!
don't worry julie. there are very few people in the world who are really really really really really good at one thing. most people are mediocre at a lot of things. But i think you are super good at the piano and your book is awesome. And you are a good baker!
You ARE awesome, Julie! I know it.
Mom
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